I'm Tired Of Pretending.....

I am the type of person that holds in my feelings unless I really feel comfortable around the person(s) then all of a sudden I am able to let my guard down. I trust this blog more than I trust a lot of people. This is a sounding board to where I don't have to worry. I don't feel like I am being judged. Well I have on some occasions but this is MY blog so I still feel comfortable putting my feelings down here.

I am tired of pretending I am alright. I am tired of sitting and listening to other people about their problems when I have problems of my own. What makes it worse is I do it with a smile on my face, as if I am not hurting.

Mostly I am tired of hiding the way I feel about people.

I think about you first thing in the morning.. and I carry you all day long with me, thinking about the good times and laughing at the bad times, because we seemed to always laugh when it is over. I pray for you every night before I close my eyes and I cry, I cry because I don't know what to do............

Then I realize I kept this hushed up too long, I held my tears and I cried silently as I laid in bed at night, but showed the strong side of myself during the day.....

I am tried of pretending that I don't Love you anymore....


It seems like you had me but I've never had you~Carrie from SITC